Cherry Seaborn

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By Mark SavageBBC Music Correspondent

Ed Sheeran says he " didn't want To Live any more" after The deaths of his friends SBTV founder Jamal Edwards and cricketer Shane Warne in 2022.

, The Star said he had dealt with depression " throughout my life" and felt The feelings resurface Last Year .

" You're under The Waves drowning. You're just sort of in this thing. And you can't Get Out of it. "

He worried his thoughts were " selfish" given that he is a parent to two girls.

" Especially as a father, I feel really embarrassed about it, " The 32-year-old said.

Sheeran credited his wife, Cherry Seaborn , with encouraging him to seek help.

" No One really talks about their feelings where I come from, " He Said . " People think it's weird getting a therapist in England . … I think it's very helpful to be able to speak with someone and just vent and not feel guilty about venting.

" Obviously, like, I've lived a very privileged life. So My Friends would always look at me like, 'Oh, it's not that bad. '

" The Help isn't a button that is pressed, where you're automatically OK, " he continued. " It is something that will always be there and just has to be managed. "

Edwards, who gave Sheeran his first Big Break , died suddenly from a Heart Attack in February 2022 after taking cocaine and drinking alcohol,

Sheeran said The Tragedy convinced him to kick a drug habit he had developed in his 20s.

" I remember just being at a festival and being like, 'Well, if all of My Friends do it, it can't be that bad,'" He Said . " And Then it just turns into a habit that you do once a week And Then once A Day And Then , like, twice A Day And Then , like, without booze. It just became bad vibes.

" I would never, ever, ever touch anything again, because that's how Jamal died, " he added. " And that's just disrespectful to his memory to even, like, go near. "

Shortly after Edwards' death, Sheeran's wife was diagnosed with a tumour which could not be operated on until after she had given birth to their second daughter, Jupiter.

" You feel so powerless, " Sheeran recalled. " There's nothing you can do about it. "

Seaborn ultimately carried The Baby to term and had successful surgery in June 2022, The Morning that Sheeran headlined Wembley Stadium , Rolling Stone said.

The emotional toll of those events can be seen in a trailer for Sheeran's forthcoming Disney+ documentary, The Sum Of It All.

In one scene, The Star is pictured crying On Stage , as he grapples with Edwards' death and Seaborn's health condition, while simultaneously facing a

" I've never seen him cry On Stage , " Seaborn observes in The clip. " He hasn't had The Time to process and be At Peace with his thoughts. "

Sheeran has previously revealed that his new album, Subtract, was completely re-written against The " backdrop of grief and hope" he experienced Last Year .

Originally intended to be A Collection of acoustic songs recorded over a 10-year period, he scrapped The Project and started again, using songwriting to " make sense" of his feelings.

He made The record with The National 's Aaron Dessner , who previously co-produced Taylor Swift 's lockdown albums Folklore and Evermore.

Dessner told Rolling Stone he'd encouraged The Star to show " a more vulnerable" and " elemental" side to his music.

As he had done with Swift, The musician started sending Sheeran instrumental tracks to craft into finished songs.

" I had these instrumentals, and I would write to them in The Backs of cars or planes or whatever, " Sheeran said.

" And Then it got done. And that was The record. It was all very, very, very fast. "

The Star added that he recorded a second, entirely separate, album with Dessner which has no firm release date at present.

He also revealed The existence of a collaborative album with reggaeton star J Balvin , as well as forthcoming music with Pharrell, Shakira, David Guetta and Justin Bieber .

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Source of news: bbc.com