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Lucy watts, MBE, is 26 Years old and preparing to die, if you contracts coronavirus.

The disability lawyer has a Life -shortening illness, the failure involves multiple organ and restrictive lung disease requiring 24-hour care to make

As of the preparation of doctors "brutal" decisions, and to prioritize treatment for those who want to recover most likely, Lucy is concerned that if they stored contracts Covid-19 you will be.

"My Life is cancelled due to my disabilities and needs, instead of My Life and the difference I have made in The World ," she says.

This is an edited version of a over several days, trying to make sense of your personal Situation

Lucy Watts speaks at a TedX event, with your support, dog Molly at your Side

I know very well in this Covid-19-pandemic, that My Life should be, saved.

This is a part-the writing-therapy, part-rant. It is full Of Anger and pain and fear. He tried to make peace, to want it, to fight back.

And it's true, every Last Word .

I'm going to isolate for a minimum of 12 weeks, maybe longer. I need 24-hour care, and am usually taken care by the ICU nurses for 16 hours per day, But my nurses called in could, back to the NHS at any time. My mom can be used for the administration of the care role, But you can't be my problem 24/7.

We practice strict infection control. I took the difficult step to say that, if I don't go Covid-19, I'm going to the hospital.

I'm going to be too weak, unlikely to survive and become difficult, weaned from ventilation on The Other Side - I have weakness of the respiratory muscle, and I Am therefore unlikely that the return to a meaningful quality of Life - and only I survived.

in This Situation , it's about who has to survive The Greatest Chance of.

I have to accept that in The Last couple of days. It does not sit comfortably with me. I rage and cry, My Life is cancelled due to my disabilities and needs, instead of My Life and the difference I have made in The World .

I Am the 9. most influential disabled person in Britain, I have a MBE for services to Young People with disabilities and in 2019, I was a fellow of the Royal Society of Arts for my commitment to disability rights.

I have More Than proven my value on Life , But it counts for nothing in this pandemic.

I've changed hearts and minds through work, passion, determination, competence and experience.

But save My Life as the value, where the cut-throat (metaphorically) decisions have to be made due to the limited resources and the large number of infected with Covid - We Are fighting for now, and We Are not even close to the top.

While the decision not to go to the hospital, I the decision about treatment is not in My Control .

I do not accept that My Life is a priority, and will not be saved.

But as much as it makes me angry and upset, I Am a prudent person, knows that this is survival on saving those who have the highest Chance to.

My Body is on its last legs.

I have so much going on - an unnamed syndrome that keeps the cells working enough energy for all my organs and muscles. I have failure of multiple organ, restrictive lung disease and respiratory muscle weakness, bowel that getting in and out of disability, chronic pancreatitis, flare-up keeps an immune system that does not fight the infection well, and a new Problem has caused the joint pain and fever 80% of The Time .

And yet I have managed to survive sepsis 14 times - this is not a great success story?

not that the card, in spite of how weak and fragile My Body is, I have a 100% success rate in surviving Life -threatening events?

But I don't have a high enough Chance to survive this Virus potentially at the expense of Someone Else ?

It's a funny head space, the feeling of how I want To Live , what is the cost, But the knowledge, the efforts could cost to extend My Life , Someone Else 's.

I went through the stages of Grief - Denial , anger, bargaining, Depression - But the "end" of this cycle for me no end in "acceptance". I do not accept. I do not accept that My Life saved worth less.

Not to understand? Yes, that part I understand.

I can't accept it, I'm worth saving, But I understand why it is so.

I don't understand, it's personally levied against myself. It is a pandemic that we have so few resources.

I just want My Life to. I have so much to do, so many plans, so many ideas.

My Life matters, My Life is worthy, My Life is valuable. But we need to make in a crisis, the countless proportions, and the people at the Front of The Heart -rending decisions. Decisions that are not fair in any way, But still.

I say thank the NHS for all, everyone does. I can do it from The Other Side of this pandemic; I can't. One thing I can say, however, is that the NHS has kept me alive against The Odds for years. It gave me The Ability to reach out To Live an amazing Life and great things and make a difference in The World .

My Life is now, and it is important, according to this. I have a heritage to be proud of.

Although Lucy is only provided that you will not be treated in the hospital, and fortunately, not Covid-19, the BMA, the ethical guidelines to prepare for the doctors that will be faced "agonizing choices" about who gets potentially Life -saving treatments, including ventilation.

He says: "It is the legal and ethical priorities in the treatment of patients," and calls for it to be examined by doctors: "the severity of the acute illness; the presence and severity of co-morbidity, frailty, or, if clinically relevant, age. "

The BMA says managers and senior doctors will be thresholds set for admission to an intensive care unit - patients, to die their "probability", or require longer periods of intensive support, exceeds The Set threshold value would not be considered for intensive treatment.

Julian Sheather, ethics adviser to the BMA, said: "In our present circumstances, the question will not be How To best meet the individual needs, But how do you maximize the benefits.

"It is better to save you benefit the lives of three patients with a high need and a high probability as a patient with a high and a low, But to the benefit of well - to-Real -Chance .

"this is the core of the moral challenge. "

Published by Beth Rose

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