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Since the video depicting a white Minneapolis Police Officer kneeling on George Floyd's neck went viral, it was near impossible to escape her.

But I, a black woman, made the decision that I have to go This Time to see the video.

It is mentally and to see physically draining for me, yet another unarmed Black Man dies Under Arrest in The Hands of a white Police Officer .

I know it's a lot of people will tell me I should be glad the video went viral, because it reveals The Truth , a deep social and systemic Problem that has been running for centuries in the United States. As A Journalist , what could be more important than me always The Truth ?

But over The Years I have found there is a fine line between the interaction of these terrible deeds and the protection of my Mental Health , especially when The Story is so deeply rooted in My Own Experience . to hear

George Floyd was and yells, "I can't breathe" before he died,

I think that someone you just find these videos distressing, But it resonates on a completely different level for a black person Like Me , because these images can trigger than traumatic.

'too much'

When I spoke, Nia Dumas, a 20-year-old African-American woman living in the United States, she told me, she couldn't stop crying after I look George Floyd's last eyes.

"I cry, sometimes four times A Day since watching it," She Said . "It was very traumatic. "

Nia lives in Cleveland, Ohio, where you have a lot of violence has Seen . Growing Up , the pictures were killed by Black People , were almost a constant in your life.

"If it's not George Floyd, then it is Someone Else 's. It is just too much," She Said .

"For me to see His video triggered memories, when Trayvon Martin was killed. I was about 11 years old and it's crazy how I can't believe I have Seen in years. I'm tired of it. "

student Nia lives in the U.S. state of Ohio

Trayvon Martin was the unarmed black 17-year-old shot by a Florida neighbourhood watchman who was cleared of any wrongdoing in 2012 on the grounds of self-defense.

It was Trayvon's killing, which brought The First use of The Black Lives Matter hashtag.

'I felt broken,'

the hashtag has been used many times, as Toni Adepegba, a 27-year-old black Briton, told me when we talked about racism and its impact on Mental Health .

"It was a tough month," He Said , "only weeks since the video of Ahmaud Arbery s-surfaced video. I had hardly happens recovered from seeing the pictures of Ahmaud the killing And Then I saw it again. "

Ahmaud Arbery, 25, was Jogging when he was shot during a confrontation with the father and the son, in the U.S. state of Georgia.

Toni, watching George Floyd's last moments was almost too much to in.

"I have no words to describe this feeling. I felt broken. I was just tired, because these two men could have been me. "

Earlier on the same day, he had observed that other viral video of a white New York woman in Central Park who calls The Police for help after a Black Man , a bird watcher, asked you to lead your dog on the leash, Rules in accordance with The Park .

the UK-based camera operator Toni Adepegba: "These men could have been me"

"That was the trigger for me," Said Toni, "because The Dynamics , it is suspended in the game; she was aware of the privilege that a White Woman had a Black Man .

"you knew, you could have detained the man, or even killed with a phone call. "

Toni could not see the entire video of George Floyd.

"My first thought when I saw it, was: 'Why are people just standing there?' But maybe they understood that they could easily be where he was. "

More about George Floyd's death

In the last few weeks I have had numerous conversations about whether or not there is any advantage in share these images on Social Media .

born in Paris Laetitia Kandolo is a 28-year-old black woman, whose family is from the Democratic Republic of the Congo.

she struggled to watch The George Floyd video on The First .

'This is our Reality "

"There were so many emotions. But a few hours later, when it was to blow only air, I went to watch back. He was totally helpless, and I identified with the helplessness. "

Laetitia Kandolo, creative director, working between France and the Democratic Republic of the Congo

"We need to find a way to take into account to keep racists", Says Laetitia. "If these videos make those who are privileged to stop because of the colour of their skin and think, then so be it. "

But she added: "It is important to remember that [White People ] are watching the video, while we live it - that is our Reality . "

For many Black People , see this video that puts together of non-Black People the question of authenticity.

", What you contribute to The Conversation ?'

Nia from the United States, is skeptical about the support you see online, deeper issues such as White Privilege and Institutional Racism are not dealt with.

"I've Seen a lot of predominantly white celebrities sharing-made ready-posts, which I think is a kind of artificial," She Said .

she has Seen to support people who really want to, which she appreciates. But it is not to applaud "a fish for swimming".

"I would like to normalizes know how you feel, what you think, as a single person, or what you contribute to The Conversation , We think that the common use of a post, video, or Retweets of support. We Are beyond that Now . "

George Floyd's death, large protests in the US are called" It still plays in my thoughts,'

If Black People come to these videos, they will inevitably see themselves, their families, and their ancestors, that behind a hashtag.

"I have a lot running in the night was when Ahmaud video came out," Said Toni.

"It dawned on me, The High probability that someone could get me to run to see, and you call The Police with the assumption that I'm Running Away from a Crime Scene . It still plays on my mind when I was In America , I would have him. "

"Every black person is a moment," Laetitia Said , "when you realize you are black, which means that the big wide world. "

For them, it was a conversation with her father when she was 18 and wanted to go to fashion school.

"He told me, 'You're black, and as a black person in an artistic sphere, you will fight, you will be Seen on the workers harder than anyone else. "I felt crushed. I screamed and cried. "

', His story is also my story "

Black People from all over The World know only too well that The Experience of racism, ranging from the extreme to the everyday micro-aggressions, all rooted in the same history.

In My Case , Growing Up as an African in multi-cultural East London , I felt kind of padded of blatant racism at first, But as soon as I had left for University to study journalism, I also deal with the "real world".

also, My afro was a topic of conversation. It went from "sassy Hair " to "a mane", it is Said that I had "moppish Hair " - that could prevent my career.

the trauma, The trigger racist videos and pictures of Black People with many such memories, either personal or collectively Shared .

A protest organizer gets think during a demonstration on George Floyd's death

"I, we realize More Than ever that George Floyd's history is also my history. We Are connected and part of a broader story," Said Laetitia.

"These images are of historical significance for Black People ; of the pictures of the lynching, the mutilation of The Hands in the Belgian Congo , these images trauma table. They tried to kill us, But We Are Still Here , to fight, To Live . "

But these images to be able to health and exhausting for a black person, to The Point that it can be harmful to your mental.

to share, I felt the overwhelming pressure to constantly read, to publish, and is active with everything on my Social Media feed about the latest hashtag on a racist killing, to George Floyd video came when I made a conscious effort to me.

'your Mental Health is Said to be a priority'

Toni, he also had to find a balance between engagement with the discussions about racism and the protection of its intellectual health.

"It is necessary to ensure that George Floyd is Not Forgotten . , "He Said .

"But I told the other Black People that they should not feel pressured to see any of these images or to share them. Your Mental Health is your priority.

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Source of news: bbc.com